Does anyone else feel like they want to scream.........go ahead.....do it

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(this is only temporary relief)

I am going to answer the age old question....Frank, what have you been doing with your life?

Ignoring love, Exploring love and finding out who i really am(i know that doesn't ryhme). It's been a tough journey from there to here, but I'm alive as some might say. And you really cant get much better than waking up in the morning, because this is the part in your day when everything is perfect....nothing has gone wrong(not yet) and it is left up to you to make the best of it. Whether you do it or not is another thing.

I choose from this day forward to wake up with a positive attitued(remember these are intentions). Live everyday as if it were my last because the truth of the matter...one day will be my last and i want that day to be my favorite.

You might be asking yourself...What brought on this attitude change...he just lost something so important to him? Well consider this me rising to the occasion. With the worst week of my entire life behind me(my cat died, my best friend and I aren't on speaking terms, my brother went to the hospital, and to top it all off there is a 90% I'm going home at semester), but thats exactly what it is...behind me. I also owe this attitude to a couple of people...Hannah Shelby you are amazing(way to kick my ass out of this mood) and the other goes to someone really close to me, when I asked them to give me something inspirational this is what they said...."It's always darkest before the dawn", think about that.

so i was on spring break for a week, and if you feel like asking how it was. Dont because im not in the mood to talk about it, to hint what it consisted of...on easter i spent it in barnes and nobel....reading the Notebook, and the only easterly thing i recieved was from Julie's mom, what a wonderful lady. but i did just get back to school and i am so glad, and wierdly enough ive been so productive....seriously for my whole week i have 5 tests to study for and 20 other misc. things to do and ive finshed about half of the misc. things and it is only tuesday.

on another note, life is getting tougher to understand/handle day-by-day. im looking at what i owe mizzou....1600 and then i look at what my unemployed ass has....400. now i know some of  you reading this arent to hot at math so ill break it down for you...im fucked. As for the whole girl ordeal...im "just chill'n" AKA im a loser.i took out my facial piercings....im going to keep the others for summer...then unless i grow muy attached to them they're going bye bye also...i kind of worried about this summer...think about it....20 hours of school, i have no money to pay for it, but im going to anyway...ummm i want to take a speed reading course...and then there is a place to stay...i guess i need one of those..."it always works out" i have to live by that.

Good bye everyone...im going to go be productive